January 26th - Post Doctor
Another day in the journey to health. Went to the doctor - interesting but I feel like I still don't have any good answers. Maybe I won't - it will be all trial and error.
The good news is he wants to wait a month prior to doing antibotics again. Good. So for the next month I am to take VSL#3 double strenght once a day, MiraLAX once a day, avoid high fiber foods, avoid gassy foods and keep a food journal. OK, I am willing to give it a shot. So I will continue my GF life and slowly remove items - it is a three strikes and you are out program. Try to keep stress to a minimun.
He did mention that taking a fiber supplement to ward off constipation was making my symptoms worse. I was not to take anything of the sort, it actually slowed down my digestion and movement. Who would have thought. So once upon a time there was a drug that sped up the movement and system - it was taken off the market due to adverse side affects. So in other words this is in my hands to get solved on my own.
The dissappointing part is when it came to weight loss for me he had nothing to say but workout and watch my calories. I was crushed. I didn't know what I expected him to say - something to try, anything. So I will continue to do what I have been doing - working out and counting calories. As I watch the biggest loser, I'm thinking of trying the body bugg again. I did it 2 summers ago and it might be worth a chance again. A dear friend is using it now too. Anyways an option.
So what I need to love myself for is knowing I could be a FF forever, not a former fatty but a forever fatty (in the most loving terms of course). In the meantime I will forge on, researching this trying new things and focusing on me, on being happy with myself.
